Day 79

I hate missing church, but a laptop and wi-fi provide the sermon at my fingertips while I have to work. Sadly, when two evil men decide to come in and lie to me, steal items from the gym, and break into other member's lockers, its so easy to suddenly forget about the message, and just want to rewind time to meet their face with the sharp side of a hammer.

After work I went to Melissa's, her mom made a great dinner, and even added these beans that were in a very thick and fuzzy pod, but that did not stop me from eating them. After dinner, and a long day, I realized, that I dont know who I am.

I dont know who I am.
I dont know what I want.
I dont know what I need to do.
I dont know who my friends are
I dont know why God allows what he allows
I dont know why I dont know.
I dont know where to go
I dont know what to say
I dont know

There can only be one cure for this, well, obviously I intend to spend time with God tonight in His Word, but the 2nd best anecdote for a lost, voided self is watching someone who is the same as me.
Mom and I are going to watch Dexter. In a world where I need to just reach out and grab something, there's always America's favorite serial killer.

- Who am I? -

Day 78

A day of rest is a day of enjoyment. You may not be driving about, spending lucratively, or eating fine dining, but a day of rest is a day of enjoyment.

I slept until 10:00AM. I had a late night before, but it's no excuse to waste a beautifully warm November day. I didn't leave the house at all during the day. I rested up, surfed eBay, played COD and Batman. Melissa came over in the afternoon and we just rested. We re-invented the term couch potato, and turned it into bed potato (no, nothing inappropriate, just a good queen size bed to serve as a more lazy couch).

Being the 5th of November, we went out for pizza, and watched V for Vendetta, a liberal fan fest of a film that has meaning and metaphors wrapped around every inch of screenplay. After the pizza, me and her went to Chad's where Sam, Tanya, and Mike were waiting. We picked up juice and played Logo, then me and Chad slipped out and went to Mcdonalds, and then Cottonwood Express. As usual, my shortcut back turned into a dark maze in suburbia neighborhoods. Luckily, we made it back and wrapped up the eve.

On a different note, immensely happy for my good friend and mentor Steve Moerdyk, who proposed to his girlfriend Marie, and allowed video to be uploaded to facebook for me to watch it. I appreciate it Steve, I'm happy for the new chapter that awaits you in your life. The years of us hanging out, filming videos, eating lunches, phrasing "get yo ______ off that bus", Star Wars, downtown prom runs, working out, Mario kart, Halo nights,  Outlet mall trips, teepeeing houses, school plays, Seriously bloopers, landscaping houses, flashing you in your swimming pool, playing "I have Never" with my ex, hotel sprees, comparing, and so much more will never go away. Ironically, when I first saw the film "V for Vendetta", I saw it with Steve. Coincidence? I think not. Steve has hours on end to fill new memories, ideas, and moments with Marie. In a country where divorce, deceit, lust, and dishonor are as common as Starbucks, I hope he never gives up. Thank you for your inspiration. You may not have known it, but you've changed a lot about me.

- Prom, 2010. Going with two women we would later realize were wrong for us. Steve & I thinking the same thought... "what have we gotten ourselves into". -

Day 77

What a day!

Spending the first early hours of my day at home getting my last specs of COD in before the new one comes out, I did just that as well as eBay. Then I made a huge salad, devoured the huge salad, and went to work for four hours.

Work work, workety work work. Working work work workly worked. Working work work work work (wow this doesn't sound like a word anymore).

After work I went to Party City to pick up the make up I needed for my costume. Before hand I grabbed dinner with Chad at Quizno's, which I will say this, Quizno's is superior to Subway, both in food quality, and the friendliness of the staff. Subway has some of the most unfriendly and cold employees. I see where the cold cut combo got it's name now. So we eat these amazing subs at Quizno's, got our free college drinks with their mini tea bar now. yes yes.

The night made its climatic end with the annual Halloween party at Noah's. There were probably a solid 50 people that made it last night, and the garage we set up was the perfect bio-dome for the crazy, costumed characters we had. I went in the house a little after midnight and fell asleep on the couch for a bit, then woke up and remained in the basement... I missed some of my friends last night, and a lot of the dancing. Aye, maybe I drank a tad too much.

- Costume -

Day 76

Still feeling an odd feeling in the throat, and certain it's not the cold, I slept in, skipping my class for a longer sleep period.

I woke up and showered, browsed the world of ebay, and killed time in my bedroom before taking the girl out to lunch at Ming Ten, an amazing Chinese buffet that is truly a relic to the Chinese food that hides in Grand Rapids. Although we were only there for a little over an hour, I keep staring at her a lot. I must like her a lot. The sushi wasn't helping take away my enjoyment either.

Went to a few stores before going into work, where I cleaned machines, vacuumed the pool, and signed up a family friend for a membership. A four hour shift that flew by very fast. Then, after the shift, I drove to my grandparents, getting my grandpa's truck, and then picking up Noah, and grabbing firewood from my house and scouting around Grandville for more skids and wooden palettes. Lowes and Home Depot had several in the back, but scared of the illusion of theft, we didn't take any. We'll see what tomorrow brings for the party.

11:30, Mike came over to Noah's, and we danced in the garage for a bit, before heading to Rivertown to see a Harold and Kumar Christmas in 3D. It was just what I expected. A ridiculous movie that still made me laugh a lot.

Finally, on a serious note, I came home, and I sit here, at 2:14AM, writing this.... and I hop on facebook, only to see another friend who is engaged. She is two years younger than me, and I have known this girl for about 7-8 years. It's funny, because in life, so many things desensitize us. You witness a violent car accident, and a year later, you're use to the gory movies. You see a Playboy magazine behind your friends garage when you're fifteen, and then naked chicks become the norm. Prices rise by a longshot, and we adjust, and go on. Engagements and marriages, are the exception. I guess I speak for myself, but they always come as a pleasant surprise to me. It's a feeling of days being ripped off a calender. Friends fulfilling the lifelong mission to love and be loved. Everytime I get on facebook and see a friend, especially one I've known for awhile tie the knot, I never can fully adjust to the act, nor comprehend the love and relationship that this person has. My mind plays the game of "Should I be where they are? Am I doing something wrong?" Vs. "Not yet... become the right man".
Sometimes I think it's both.

- Harold and Kumar.... this generations Cheech and Chong. Yesterday's Hangover films -

Day 75

Ahh, freedom.net...... You sucky suckers of sucking. Your internet service may be the worse service offered in the United States next to ObamaCare.

While I hope and pray the internet works properly tomorrow so I can upload the appropriate pictures, I'll still update this.

Worked from 10-2. Before I left for work, Ruby pooped five times upstairs. Sigh...

So I work from 10-2. A very busy work day, didn't get a moment to escape at all; totally and completely plugged into the desk and paperwork the whole time. This is a good thing, busy day means good business. After the shift I shot home to whip up a three page paper due today about one of the Republican candidates for the 2012 election. I try to stay out of politics, but the class of COM203 drives it into who you are. I chose Rick Perry, the governor of Texas. His platform and issues seem the most fitting.

My Spanish test was the best I've had, I'm confident I got an A- on it. I knew everything, and am excelling again, where as the beginning of this month I was fumbling. It's amazing what an extra hour in the lab will do for you, plus actually studying just a mere 15 minutes before the test.

Stopped at a tiny Chinese Buffet house in Jenison I've never been to before. The place was empty, though I dont know why. A 6.99 dinner buffet over the 4.99 lunch buffet is the best Chinese buffet deal I've seen in Michigan. I was only there for soup, so I grabbed the hot and sour bowl and went home to work on this, my blog, but alas! freedom.net fails again. Much like Donald Trump failed to follow through with his presidential plan. Oye! Politicos!

- The empty Chinese buffet -

Day 74

After Com 101 class, I needed to experience the starting of the holiday seasons. After class, I drove to Best Buy, and Michaels, where the stores, particularly Michaels was still in the process of adorning many christmas ornaments, yet already looked and smelled like Christmas. Christmas music, the cinnamon, holiday smell you smell at family get togethers when you're wearing a sweater (its an odd combo, but you smell it). It was there. I bought Trainspotting on blu-ray at Best buy. 6.99. Sold.

Today I started my detox, so water, juices, and about a two pound salad engulfed my stomach today. I cleaned out my system so good, that my stomach actually began to church, and I was, well.... constantly adjusting to such changes in my body. (I'll leave it at that). ((100+)). Don't forget the huge jug of vitamin water.

At night I went to Holland where we spent more time in creativity, learning how to market and obtain ideas. I'm almost certain I'll be writing a book for my final, though time will tell with that one.

Ended the night at Noah's, eating candy bars and setting up his garage for the party. We have PVC pipes in the upstairs of the barn, connected to the fog machine, so the fog rains down in multiple holes. It's sweet.

- Noah's Barn, home of the H20 party -

Day 73

Of course what better trend to follow the previous post, then experience the devil attacking me today.

The morning was okay, nothing too special other than some enjoyment with the new Batman game, as well as a bowl of Cocopuffs and extraneous eBay shopping. I wanted to spend the day cleaning out my car, like intense cleaning. I cleaned the windshield, vacuumed, dusted, wiped down, and even went as far as taking the thirty minutes it took to unscrew my seat and remove that, cleaning thoroughly underneath it. My project went so long, I missed my first class, so I went inside to make some soup. In what I am calling an act of God, (or maybe the devil), my cell phone, which was under the cabinet, away from anything and everything, would still not be safe.... that is, from me opening the cabinet, and having a bottle of hot sauce fall, hit the counter, actually bounce, non shattering, and then landing a second time on my phone that was hidden and tucked underneath the normal drop zone, resulting in a severe dent and cracks that created a web of anger over my Droid. Why? Why? Why? The odds of that happening, are so rare, I assure you that couldn't happen again if I tried. Someone wants me to get a new phone...

The stress of my phone makes me realize I have a short essay due for Spanish class (I'm still going to this one), so I hustle to my computer and do the essay. Bill Gates and his Microsoft Word program are racist; I say this because Word is the most unfriendly and ignorant word processor when it comes to a foreign language. Long live Apple.

I was running late, so I sped off to class, forgetting about the loose seat. The minute I stepped on the gas, I nearly flipped backward, almost causing a horrific accident. I can see the eyewitness statements.... "Yah, he just stepped on the gas and then did like a back flip in his car... just disappeared." I had to drive to school in what felt like a rocking chair on wheels. If I would have gotten in an accident, I would have died. Not even the seat belt could save me. Spanish class came and went, very short class, and I killed time in the lab before going to Chads. (Ahh, it was my last supper at Mcdonalds as well.... November 1st my healthy spree begins).

A perfect way to end a stressful day. Juice, pizza, eggs, and a fun game that lasted until 1:00AM. I was laughing so hard I lost my voice, and even as I type this, my throat is still coarse.
Chad - "A nose in need keeps the boogies away".
Mike - "Chad, this is why you should NOT work in marketing".

- Today's Face -