Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Day 116

A grand morning indeed this morning, because I got to eat a warm, good country breakfast in the cozy confines of Cracker Barrel with my friend Chad. We each ordered pancakes, sausage, and eggs, and enjoyed the time there as well as the general-store feel. A good way to start the morning... I need to have more royale breakfasts like so.

After that I finally managed to ship a book from half.com I sold almost two weeks ago. I've had hell hit me with trying to ship this book, but alas, I shipped it. Victory! From there I went home and attempted more Christmas shopping, but still got no where.

2-6 I worked, helped some girls rock climb, talked to others, and booked our company Christmas party. After work I showered at the gym and then changed, and picked up my friend Melissa, and we went to the Storytelling Pictures Christmas Party. Got to re-connected with some great people. Ran into Jordan Carson, who co-hosted MYGR Weekend with me, as well as the WOODTV station manager, Meijer friends, and others. Also got to re-connect with a fellow film-maker Zac Page, who went to the same school as me years and years ago. We talked a good portion of the night about films and what we'd like to do in the future. They also held door prizes, and Melissa's name was drawn. She won a nice goodie bucket, and just won barely, because 15 seconds after she put in her name, they drew names.Also, I noted the sushi was darn good.

After the party, I spent some time talking with Jon, my dad's business partner. Jon has been like a 2nd father to me. He gave me some insight, and I'm hopefully getting breakfast or lunch with him come next week. He's a great guy, very thankful and blessed I have the opportunity to know him.

Left the event with Melissa, and then dropped her off at her house, although not before discussing my own life and what would happen to everything in it, even her and I. I just don't know. I left her house feeling guilty, and probably even leading her on. She encouraged me to fully disclose how I feel, so I am. I left her house, angry at myself. This is a girl I broke up with, and I'm conveniently keeping on a shelf for when I want to hang out with her. I cast my head.

I dreamt this dream in the earlier realm of this morning, as in the 14th, not the 13th, but I feel it's still part of my day. I've been using sleep as the chapter-skip point, but if I were to stay up all night, what would that be? Anyway, here is the dream I dreamt.
"I am batman. I've been fighting people occasionally, but Im finnally done. I am watching a bunch h of people get hurt in fake walls, and i try to warn robin, who is my good friend, not to get hurt. im watching from above as people walk through this big maze and the walls keeep falling them, watching them crush instantly. For some reason, I try to stop them, but they keep getting crushed. I turn around and Robin is having sex with Catwoman, or not having sex, but becoming very intamate. I keep telling him to stop, but he wont listen to me. they sit there in each others arms. then she leaves. he follows her. i tell him to be careful. i am hurt i have lost my good friend and partner to a girl, so i fly away. its the first time ive fown, though its not the regular flyingg. i flew , or glided with my bat cape until i landed on a garage. but something happened. maybe it was a light storm in the distance, mayge it was lightning, i dont know, but i lost my powers. i couldnt fly. i crashed through a roof and fell asleep. when i woke up, the next morning, some outcast old people who were sick of being taxed were outside arguing. one of them saw me. the pulld me out, maybe to kill me, but they still had some good in them and didnt. i tried to fly away, abut i fell. thishas happened to me before. ive dreamt this portion of the dream before. i lose myself. i dont know who i am. its like ive lost my identity, and i need to figure out who i am, so i cant use any of my powers. the people are nice and tell me i can stay with them... but time is short. i run away into a special morgue. i get inside, george clooney falls on top of me. ironic, because he was batman once in a movie. hes laying on top of me, and its awkward.... im like... so.,... whats my favorite geroge clooney movie... well i really liked fantastic mr. fox.... it was good. now the creepy part. im inside the morgue. its a giant catholic church morgue. old cobblestone and marble walls, but its hot. very hot. it reminds me of hell in a way, because people go here to die or be disposed of. i say disposed of, because hjeres what happens. this is the normal routine for how peol=ple die, and someine i knew died. it was this very obese man at my work that died, and the body is brought to this big cathedral like morgue. the builiding is a reddish tint inside, with smoke and lava running aunderneath. there are two big generatios and turbines that grind up the lava, but this is all underground. this obese man whos name i wont say has died, and his body part is in pieces. 
by the way, this whole timeim in here, that creepy song from star wars is playing,


the one where anakin becomes darht vader... its a chior song on the soundtrack, its a very ominious and gloomy song. they lso play this song in the star wars movie when qui gon is burning in his funeral in the phantom menace. anyway, this music is echoing throughout the halls. this obese man has been chopped up. he is dead. he was so fat, that in my dream, undreds of bags are there, carrying his fat and other muscles. the morgue instructer has a glowing red crown and septor sitting on a table that overlooks this conveyere belt underneath us. he tells me to go turn on the turbines to full speed. fi go over to the wall and do it, but a fuse blows, and i roast the whole place. i mean, it explodes. giant fire balls. i dont have my superpowers yet, so i can glide out or use my batarang. i sprint out for my life, and grab my friend melissa, who is helping throw these bags of fat over hte ledge. i grab her and we just make it out, as a giant fireball roars behind us. i wait, then we go back in, luckiliy, no one died. a fireball just escaped, but everyone keeps working. then the depressing scene happens. guys around me who are cutting up the body start making fun of the man, saying htings like fat f%%%. im glad hes dead... and ive been cutting him up all day, i love it... i enjoyed cutting him up. even though he was dead for all this, it was so animalistic. also, all of the meat form his body was charred form the fireball, so it smelled and looked tasty, but still disgusting, and id never eat it. now the main bishop stands up, my grandma and grandpa are here... and everyone starts chucking bags on this big metal wieght that starts to sink under water, which then will suck everything to the conveyor belt, which will ultimately burn it. the man that died was so fat, the barge is sinking underwater, and there are workerse in the water trying to help. i throw a bag in, riled with fat. i can see of his lungs in this bag, and i hurl it in. it splashes one of the workers, but he remains stone cold. the last image i see on this brarge, the size of a car btw, is an old couple in the water. they want to die today. they came here to die together. i was saddened by this, and almost started crying. they dont need to die yet, they may be old, but they still have each other. but its too late, the music, that sad sad music is still playing. the converor belt starst sup. the old couple says i love you to each other, and then grabs each other and gets sucked under the water, as more bags of the dead persons body parts are thrown on top of them. the rest of us in there wh as the bags and the old people are no sunken, and have been sucked onto the conveyor belt, where body parts and them will be crushed and burned in the turbines. i had to leave, i couldn watch these two people die, . if they hadnt drowned yet from being underwater for a minute, they were about to be burned alive. i remember seeing hands and feet of the obese man land on the conveyeor belt, as others watched arouund me, the bishop still in the middle of the room. he reminded me of an occultic leader, because, he just looked evil. i couldnt be in the room anymore.... i ran out, still trying to fly, but i couldnt, becasue i dont know who i am. i collapse on the ground oustide, in the frest airl... some people walking around are just looking at me, but i cant take it. i curlb up on the ground nad pray that i can become myself again..."

Monday, December 12, 2011

Day 115

Exam week!!

Took my Communications 101 exam this morning at ten. I was the first to finish and made it home by 11:15. This only left me with 45 minutes to Christmas shop online before I had to meet Mike at Costco for lunch. From lunch, I went to work.

Today at work was great, had many laughs, however, was saddened by a surprise death of one of our members. She was young, and I was one of the people that helped them get signed up. I was shocked to hear it, and for the rest of the day, a certain small omen hovered over me, casting this realization that we aren't promised tomorrow (as Betsy said). It made me think anyone can die at anytime. Each day is a gift. So, so, so, so many people neglect that.

After work I had to return to GVSU again for my Spanish exam. I was the 2nd one finished, and felt very good about the completion of the course. Returned home for more Christmas shopping. I must have sat in front of my mac for three hours, but still very little luck. One more gift ordered..... I feel so defeated..... not just from shopping, but in general.
I give up....
I surrender.

- The White Flag of Surrender -

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Day 114

This morning was sunny, but still cold, and I went to church by myself.

I sat with Melissa because Chad blew a tire and Sam was working. We enjoyed the service, however, I experienced some irony in the first ten minutes. Much of which was on my mind the night before was right in front of me, literally, both in the flesh and in my phone. The best way I can sum this up is the past literally came back to haunt me, right there, in my pew. A former president of a college and an ex girlfriend... God must love irony. Sometimes I feel like (all in good fun mind you) God looks at his angels and says "Hey guys, come over here... watch this... " and throws me these ironic curve balls that He knows makes me scurry about and start wondering things and looking for signs. I'm like an ant who is doing his daily grind, and suddenly a rock falls into my area. I scatter.

Anyway, after church, Chad met Melissa and I at Akita Buffet, which is still lacking to Ming Ten. The food was good but the service was terrible. Blind people could provide a better waitstaff. We got zero refills. We had to shout and flag down the non-English speaking staff. We saw Gavin there, and chatted with him as well.

After that, Melissa came back to my house and we watched some Curb, hung out, and then left after some Costco pizza for Festival of Lights back at church. The show was decent, not bad. Makes me miss musical theatre. The music is my personal favorite... live instruments and singing always inspire me, make me think, and relax me. After the show we talked with Chad again and then I sped home so I could watch Dexter, but not before stopping off at Meijer. Ran into John and Marcia Evans, and talked with them for a bit. Picked up more junk food then returned home and watched Dexter. Augh!!! So good, so good. This season is probably my 2nd favorite.... I'm still tied between the 2nd and 5th season, though I always lean more towards the 2nd as the best.

This was taken in Meijer. Another shopper was shopping for Cheez-Its! and simply gave up. The conquest through Meijer and the cheesy snacks failed. Mission abandoned. I hope the shopper is okay, where ever they are.... maybe dangerous temple guards or crocodiles got to them before they could escape Meijer with the Cheez-Its. Maybe next time..

- Futile Mission -

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Day 113

Because of my busy week and finalization of school for the semester, I've been behind on this, I know.... but the biggest downfall now is that I forgot to update my blog, which means I forgot what I did today.

I know I worked from 2-8, and spent a good hour and a half taking apart a huge leg press machine, and then painting the wall behind it.

After work, my usual gang went to Peppino's, where I ordred cherry coke and a darn good salad.

See, this post is so short...... Augh! Need to stay on this!

- Cold Friends -

Friday, December 9, 2011

Day 112

I've been having a more difficult time actually getting up in the morning... even on mornings like today, where I wake up at 9:00, I am still tired.

I had to be at work at 11, so I stopped off at the post office before I went in to ship my last item. From there, I punched in at work for a very long shift.... 11-6. I mean, that's not overly long, it went by fast, but I accomplished a lot. Worked on projects with my boss, replaced lights, set up a new project board that I'm manning now, it's great.

After work I went home and cleaned my room hardcore... again. Bleached the bathroom floor, picked up clothes, just made it look like a habitable living room vs. a refugee camp.  My friend Ryan came over and we had a nostalgia night with playing video games. We started with COD, but then, we really hit the memories when we started playing Crash Bandicoot games (CTR). We ended the night with some beers and watching Bruno. Gosh I love that movie. I'm adding Sacha Baron Cohen to my inspirational people on facebook right now.

And seriously, I'm so mad at myself I keep forgetting to take pictures.....

- CTR -

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Day 111

The last cold morning I would have to get up to go to Com 101. We discussed relationships, fighting, confrontation, and other things that I feel I have mastered quite well.

After class I returned home and did more Christmas shopping online for random people. I wasn't there long before I decided to head out and do some returns from the birthday and other older purchases I've had. Plus, I had a free meal at China Max. This friggin punch card took over a year and a half to fill out. If you've never eaten at China Max, it's one of the best mall chinese venues you'll find. I got a huge plate and a giant coke, and ate till I was about to explode. I never got why Chinese people are typically smaller, when the majority of their food is protein packed chicken. Hmmm.... Seriously, have you ever seen ripped or body building Chinese people? Hmmm... Anyway, walked around the mall, returned some pants that were 2 months old, picked up some gifts, and left the mall, but not before stopping at Michaels to get some frames for my bathroom.

Finally got home and did some more shopping, then left for work soon and worked until close. It was a slower shift, but I enjoyed it. After the shift, I went out with my friends April and Kaitlin. I took them to the Braodway Pub, which is truly a Christmas spirit bar. There was a huge mini Christmas city they put in the middle of the bar, and, well, I took pictures, but even the pictures I took won't do the bar justice. You go to this bar and you just never want to leave. Every table has robotic and moving robots that sing Christmas songs, lights, table cloth, it's just overboard. A cozy feel good Christmas bar. We stayed there for a good hour and a half, made good friends with the waitress, and I ordered the olive burger, and dang. Their burgers are rated in the top 5 burger bars in G.R. Just sayin...
- Broadway Pub -

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Day 110

It was truly a rare moment this morning that I could sleep in and not have to work (and thank goodness for that, because, as mentioned on the previous blog, going to sleep at 5:00am has it's disadvantages).

However, the masses of ebay buyers paid me my wages, so it was time to ship out items. I felt rather sick, probably from the previous night, so I went to Meijer and bought coconut water, which is amazing. Totally refreshed, re-hydrates, and packs you with potassium. Bought my materials, then went home to pack all the items with the help of my mother.

Later on, I met my friend Tanya for lunch at Panera. We talked for a good hour about life, memories, our views on things, and then I bid her farewell so she could look at a house. I then shipped the items after Panera, and went to my last classes in debate and Spanish, where I aced the oral Spanish exam, and we watched the Stanford Prison Experiment in debate. Good way to end a semester.

Afterwards, Mike took me out for my birthday, which consisted of grabbing Costco hot dogs, and then seeing the film "Hugo" in 3D.  The previews before the movie were laughable. All the new movies coming out are 3D releases. Excluding Star Wars, because getting to see the first 3D footage from Phantom Menace almost got me aroused, but the rest of the previews were just remakes. Beauty and the Beast, and Titanic. Yes, Titanic is coming out in March is 3D. See the drownings like never before. I joked that Titanic could win best picture..... again, just Titanic 3D. Hollywood, you are running out of ideas clearly. The film Hugo was beautiful, and I'm sure is going to win some type of award. It pays some glorious homage to old films that date before the 1900's, and is essentially a 3D version of Cinema Paradiso. I liked it alot, and when I found out it is based on true people and the films in the movie where re-done from the original destroyed films, wow. This is no mere PG kids film.

- To Understand this picture (from a film before the 1900's, go see "Hugo" -