So many people wonder why God allows terrible things to happen. Why he lets tsunamis and earthquakes demolish cities and families. We wonder why.... and yet, he is God... sometimes we never know why..... but he doesn't like doing it. I felt a similar feeling today. Carrying around a storm cloud...
Waking up with stuffed noses are never fun.... it was one of those really hard blows out the nose. One of the blows where you do it really hard and you just hear the high pitched air escaping through a newly created crevasse inside the mucus. I got ready and went to work, and spent about 70% of my shift, just cleaning, trying to just clean. I didn't feel like human interaction, just wanted to clean.
In honor of the main idea behind this blog, yet, for personal reasons, I ended the boyfriend/girlfriend status with my girlfriend today. That was my storm cloud I was carrying around.... I can't say anything else. It was a very hard day. I cant talk about it right now.
Gave my speech today, which went good. I guess I was up at the podium for ten minutes, but it felt like 4. It comes natural to me, I tend to thrive on communication. Spanish was fast as well.... in fact, my whole night flew unnaturally fast. Spent some time in the Spanish lab, which I'm done with next week, right before Thanksgiving. Thank goodness.
Went home, picked up some hot and sour soup, browsed eBay for some Sperry's, and just thought. I don't know a lot about life, right now so much doesn't make sense. I was thinking about things I get... what makes sense to me.... I realized that film, vitamins, & Spanish language are the only things I'm getting right now...kind of depressing, but its true... I just get it. I can connect, relate, and see the benefit and future in those things. Time will hopefully bring more relations, connections, and meanings to a life that is currently being moved by God in the chessboard of life. I skyped with Ty last night for a solid hour and a half, and we both realized how blessed we are that we are currently being moved and watched by God at this very minute. Right now, God is shaping us into the men he wants us to be, and it's a bittersweet feeling.
Time to watch last night's Dexter I missed. One other character that makes sense to me.
- This best represents my speech style for speeches -
